So, here we are, this baby and I … counting down the final days of a pregnancy that—I don’t know, maybe it’s just me—feels like it’s gone on FOREVER. (Or maybe it’s just the fact I can’t remember the last time I wore a pair of pants with a zipper :) )
I had a friend share that when you’re pregnant, you’re prone to thinking this. That you’ve been (and will be) pregnant for the rest of your life. But then the baby comes and you think, “Wait, was I really pregnant? How on earth did you get here?”
I continue to be so grateful for all the friends and family who have shared their advice and kind words and love with me in this home stretch of these nine months. It’s been such a wondrous time. Though, I must admit, I wish my brain would shut off and let me enjoy it more than it has this last month or so. Whereas my husband is nothing but giddy excited, I can’t help but feel nervous and anxious for what’s ahead, from the labor and delivery to those early newborn days, which I hear can be one of life’s greatest challenges—and blessings, too, of course.
I read a wonderful book during this pregnancy wherein the author talks about how it’s not just the baby that needs those nine months to develop into the miracle of a little human being. It’s the mother as well. And I can’t help but think that’s true. For so much of this pregnancy, I felt unprepared to be a mom and, if I’m being honest, unsure of whether my maternal instincts would live up to my (or society’s) expectations.
But now that I’m ticking things off that to-do-list of mine, nesting up a storm (a cliché that is so true!) and getting ever closer to my October 11 due date, I see how that viewpoint has changed in just the past few weeks alone. And while I can’t predict the kind of mother I’ll be, I’m holding out hope that, through trial and error, I’ll reach that point where, if someone were to ask, I could respond back with “A good one.”
In the meantime, let me just share that through the heartburn and the sleepness nights, it’s been encouraging and wonderful to share this journey with you. Here’s to meeting the little boy who’s ready to greet us on the other side of it all ….