In the past six months, I’ve mentally written this post a thousand times — as I brushed my teeth, rinsed conditioner from my hair, and attempted to quiet my brain before falling asleep. Somewhere I stopped, knowing it would be a parting I wasn’t prepared to put down into words until I had to.
Friends, that time is now.
If you’ve been a blog follower of mine you know I’ve written numerous times about my pull to write. That the dream I’ve had, always in my ear, like the sea you hear inside a shell, is to become an author. Until recently, that dream felt impossible. And I was perfectly content to fool myself into believing so. Especially when I’d found this other way to beautifully channel my creativity through photography.
Over the past eight years, I have loved every moment I’ve dedicated myself to this visual craft. Looking back, I have grown so much, both as a person and as an artist. And yet, the balance I found in being a part-time photographer, a writer at my day job, and a mother on the home front was being thrown off by the increasing pull I felt to write fiction. What finally forced my hand was 1) finishing my first book (which I’m at present revising) and 2) returning over and over to a vision of my future self at a desk, writing.
You’ve likely noticed I’ve stopped blogging here. That’s because, in the free time I’ve had, I’ve been writing fiction like a mad woman and preparing to launch my new website, one dedicated to writing. But first I must share that I will no longer be accepting new photography clients.
Making this decision has been extremely difficult for me. Yet the peace I’ve found in quietly sharing my diverging dreams with family and friends has been precisely the support I’ve needed to go public with this news.
One of those friends is Kelly, a fellow photographer and mother of two. She and I met years ago, bonding over an online forum we frequented before meeting in real life. When I wrote to her about my plans to bow out of my business, her response brought tears to my eyes. She gave me her blessing to share it here, her words feeling like the perfect coda to my photography career.
To that end, I want to thank everyone who has been a client and supported me over the years. I hope you’ll continue cherishing the photographs I’ve captured for you. This creative chapter in my life has been filled with nothing but the greatest of memories but now I look forward to (quite literally) writing the next.